Thursday, December 6, 2007

Here I am

Well, here I sit. Just had a real nice dinner with Jo, Al, Kathy and John. Very nice. G couldn't make it - why am I so disappointed. I do believe my feelings come from the loss of Jeff. I'm not ashamed just confused as to why I feel this way. Why do I feel that he feels the same way. I'm sure he doesn't He is a kind decent person who would not indulge himself like that. and yes I am ashamed of my feelings.

I need to concentrate on my new found freedom and the possibilities that lay before me but I am soooo lonely and I miss Jeff so much. I feel like a half a person.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Rainy Night

I'm all along with my thoughts.

Remember the first rainy weekend in our new apartment? It was a Saturday night, the fireplace was going, you're watching your sports and I'm reading a book right by the fire place. You made sure that my back was supported and that I had enough light to read from.

"Speaking strictly for me, we could have died then and there..."

Will I ever know that contentment or happiness again?